Scott Nute Evangelism Ministry: Domestic Violence: Door of Rage

Domestic Violence: Door of Rage

Wounds:
Addictions/Compulsive Behavior
Control
Depression
Divorced Families
Domestic Substance Abuse
Domestic Violence
Eating Disorders
Grief
Loneliness
Family/Marriage/Relationships
Pornography
Rage/Anger
Sexual Abuse
Singleness
Suicide

BOOM! The large‚ thick window in our front door literally shattered with explosive noise. I was sleeping on the couch when awakened by this shocking intrusion. I was around 10 years old at this time. Family members were frantically attempting to discover what had happened. In my bare feet I creeped cautiously to the front door‚ being sure to avoid all the broken glass. I looked out the broken door and saw on the front porch the person who did this. Initially it did not register in my intellectual or emotional system‚ as I was much too young to process this overload of shock. It was my dad standing on the front porch with flakes of snow falling all around him. It was winter. That event‚ that night‚ in Moberly‚ Missouri‚ is engraved in my memory forever.

The purpose of telling this story is not to shame or seek revenge on my dad. Through years of healing and through the forgiving power of Jesus Christ I have released and forgiven my dad. I tell this story to connect with and let others know they are not alone in their world of domestic violence and rage.

My dad never physically hit or abused me. Yet‚ the violence and destruction of things on several occasions was deeply damaging. Due to the chronic bouts of rage‚ mostly induced by alcohol‚ my mom for safety reasons moved herself and my brother and I to Las Cruces‚ New Mexico. It took a lot of courage for my mom to do that. Who knows what would have happened if we had stayed.

Classic domestic violence is usually defined as being physically assaulted by a family member. I cannot relate to you specifically if this happened to you. But‚ the storms of rage I witnessed are classified as domestic violence. If you grew up in a home where you were physically abused and/or witnessed violent and rage filled behavior‚ then you are probably connecting with my words. I am sorry this happened to you! You deserved much better and so did I.

Are you hurting because of growing up in domestic violence? Please seek help and review the "Next Steps" on the Wounded Heart homepage. God loves you and so do we. Gifted people are waiting to walk by your side as you begin your journey of healing from the wounds of domestic violence. The first step is yours. Have the courage to take it.

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